May 12th
Tension always precedes transformation and birth. Trust the
tension.
Wisdom of Mary
Magdalene
This is a message that I needed and wanted to hear. There are places of tension of in my life today; both emotionally and spiritually. I want clear answers and directions NOW and try as I might for force an outcome, the tension remains.
In reviewing the original meaning of the word "tension" I learned that it comes from the Latin to "stretch." I have a dream that I have been nurturing for a couple of years now. When I detach from my own struggle around it, I can see how Spirit is stretching me spiritually and emotionally. I am being called to trust, surrender, release, receive and trust, surrender and release some more.
While there is an outcome that I imagine, I am not sure of the exact direction and actions to take to manifest it all. The one thing that continues to hold me afloat is my own prayer and meditation practice. Daily I pray, meditate, breathe deeply, sometimes throw a temper tantrum, beg or demand; but eventually I come to surrender and survive another day. Recently I've heard an old saying, "When Spirit closes a door, a window will open but the hallway can be hell."
To this I can relate. The hallway can be dark, smelly and never-ending as well.
Sacred Feminine energy and voice reminds me that "tension always precedes transformation" and this provides me comfort. I remember imaging my beautiful daughter and how excited I was to meet her during a very long and arduous birthing experience. I can rely on that experience to remind me that it was well worth the waiting.
As women and men, we give birth in many ways to numerous projects, relationships, events, dreams and ways of being. Breathing deeply, doing what we can in the moment and trusting the process helps.
Blessings to you on your journey. I know there are times and places where the tension has seemed unbearable in your life as well. Knowing there is light at the end of the hallway and that we are not alone always helps!
Sally